Deceitful Love
Abuse in relationships what to know?
Healing from Deceitful Love, narcissist or not emotional abuse in a relationship of any sort is an individual ‘choice and decision‘. Only we can make that choice for ourselves. Making the choice is actually not the most difficult part, the hardest is to heal without ever understanding why one can inflict such pain onto another for no reason at all.
Here is your song from me to listen to while you read…
Healing from an evil obsessive narcissist was one of the deepest, hardest, and everlasting pains I’ve ever felt. Now I can say the most powerful too.
However hard this is or has been for me, I share my story humbly hoping that it can make a difference and who knows – more than that.
Not understanding why, I had to experience a loss such as my baby, or of my father to suicide was hard you bet, devastating, to say the least however somehow over time, I’ve managed to wrap my head around it.
To experience a marriage with an obsessive, and sadistic narcissist – was heart-wrenching, ripped my soul apart, and to this day has no possible explanation – I cannot say I understand it, I don’t think it is possible to understand it, it is beyond such a thing and I still cannot wrap my head around it nevertheless my heart.
Getting to terms that to let go of anything is often uncomfortable, or agonizing is just ONE of many steps. Replaying painful memories is like taking a leap of faith.
The past is predictable and familiar but the new is a mystery, hence usually very frightening.
While the devil doesn’t change – Healing from a narcissist relationship is possible (Deceitful Love)
I felt trapped, but the biggest of all was to realize that I allowed it to happen to me. This I came to understand. Somehow, I enabled him to do so. I own it.
I could be here endlessly writing down all the reasons (and valid ones I still believe) for having stayed 14, 15 plus years in such a relationship, but I won’t simply because it took me, to take responsibility for my own part in it to begin my healing and transformation.
The bottom line is that there are things, situations, and people that are so worth losing, that it’s not even a joke, cutting completely from your life is not only liberating but a blessing in disguise!
While letting go may sound like a struggle and we all know it is. Harder than the consequences of enabling is to accept the abuse and torture we have lived through: be it verbally, emotionally, and or physically. How can anyone understand those that inflict pain on others for fun and pleasure?
“When I realized that I was in hell’s bottomless pit, the abyss became my Oasis. Letting go opened the horizons towards my blessings over time, but it wasn’t without tribulations”
Do you need Permission for healing from a narcissist or Emotional abuse relationship?
Let go of the old idealizations of you and transform your life so that you can regain your own kind of beauty again!
Fear embeds our being, with the terror that lurks in our shadow and runs in our veins. We have the innate potential for chaos. Is it not what we see all around? The chaos that we cannot sustain without damage of some sort?
Abdicating (in any way) from the individual responsibility each one of us has, is renouncing our own throne and bringing upon Self-inflicted chaos.
I have enough reasons to believe that I’ve lived too many experiences in one lifetime alone. Crushing disappointments were a big part of it, to say the least. Today I can say, I am better, stronger, and fabulous so worthy of Love, thanks to all that. A rough diamond is a diamond, I see you!
When we cut ourselves, we need to stop the bleeding, then let the healing take its course… takes time, right? Just like emotional and mental matters. I have your back, I hear you, I understand you.
We cannot see clearly in the middle of a storm, and neither can we vibrate high with a broken heart. So, let it be to let it go, ‘no storm lasts forever, it is after an emotional storm that we can see the damages with a clear mind. You are not alone.
When there are children like those below in the relationship their soul is equally or worse ripped apart… Yet it is our responsibility to PROTECT THEM. You don’t have to just be strong for yourself, you have to do so for them
Healing from an abusive, and or narcissist relationship is a leap of faith worth more than words can tell
Standing on firm ground is to own up to the role that we’ve played in our past so that we can Let Go of it, and live life looking forward instead of in the rear-view mirror. So that we can truly forgive ourselves for it all and heal.
Let’s face it, how much longer of the same bullshit do you plan to endure further? If it smells like shit, looks like shit, feels like shit it’s because it is shit!
We think about our role in all of it, in the current personal life so that we can Let in the New and move forward.
Healing from a narcissist relationship of any kind is like taking a leap of faith to allow the blossomed version of you to come to the surface
“It is love, of course, that guides the reorganization and its unfolding. But it is love, too, that is the substance of the ashes, and also the tears, the tears of grief and the tears of love. If the tears could speak, they may tell us that there is no medicine in a wound that is already healed, but only in one that is weeping.” Matt Licata PhD
Letting go, and forgiving is a choice that we make when we’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. Acting upon injustice need not wait for the right time.
Deep cuts, nasty scars, heavy burdens, traumas, pain, and hurt need not wait for the right time for healing to begin – it starts with a choice.
Enabling Emotional, Mental, and Physical abuse of any sort, year after year for so many years is heart-wrenching and tragic, to say the least. It was this realization that ‘I enabled it, that led me towards healing, transformation, and freedom.
It is real that there is a time we cannot see any light, hope dies, we subside to the darkness and succumb to the torment, despair and feel that the only way out is to end, literally everything.
Narcissists take you there with a smile, they’re the devil in disguise, and the spotlight will always be theirs, for they are the perpetrators. They’ve mastered getting away with tormenting anyone that is on the periphery of their radar. They are good at it.
Healing from it begins …
… when we make the choice to not let ourselves be just one more victim or part of the statistics. If you are or have been one, join us, there are many like you and me… be the witness that changes the story’s narrative – Let your truth be heard. SAY it out loud: “NO MORE” You know deep inside that you can, and will heal – everything you may face from that point onwards is turbulent, not easy but IT IS WORTH IT, it is empowering.
To everyone out there that has experienced or is experiencing any kind of abuse, my message is to remember that no one deserves to live in shame or guilt – ever! and that? Certainly, includes YOU.
Let Go of the confinement of the mind and imprisonment of the soul
Their drill is that it is all, always our fault, most certainly always, of course, always! We’re never, ever good enough for them, we’re useless and do nothing right but ‘pressing’ the wrong buttons; ‘we deserve’ to be publicly embarrassed, humiliated because we ask for it!?
Truth is our misery is their joy…
Does it sound familiar? … It will only be so, while we enable it.
Their rage, violent and uncontrollable anger go from mild irritation or annoyance to serious outbursts, not so?
Narcissistic people will get you to actually start doubting your own sanity – yourself!?
For example, it is just typical of them to insult you, scold, yell excessively, not only will you always only do everything wrong, “Once again, and again… we’re always misunderstanding everything, misinterpreting what they say, confused heads, so we are never good enough in their eyes, everything they do to us is our fault and we asked for it!
Since we never listen properly or talk nicely they get angry – How hilarious!
Warning!! This voice recording is not for the faint-hearted, seriously do not listen to it if you’re not emotionally very strong, or if you are currently vulnerable!
For those that do, or can, this is so that you understand once and for all that you are not alone!!!! YOU ARE NOT ALONE! It is not your fault! You are great! Fabulous! Deserving!
Most important you are not the mad one. Your life can change, you can be happy, you can be yourself again!
This is as real as it gets. Yes, I finally lost it, in the car, him driving home from the hospital as the night before I’d almost died… I was trying to unlock the door to jump out of the car… I’d reached my last straw – total madness… I am ashamed that I have allowed this in my life and 8 years of betrayal I never knew of till late.
We are just a tool they use to practice on – Ouch! right?
- Understanding this can change completely the direction we take at the crossroads.
- This is a disorder that they have and you have nothing to do with it.
- Their violent form of communication is intended to harm your ‘self-concept’ so that they feel better in theirs
- Subconsciously they evoke negative emotions in others so that while others get devoured by the pain they inflict, they feel exhilarated instead!
- Understand what makes them feel great, better, and powerful. This is not a joke; it is a pattern of behavior that they use intentionally to control and manipulate us or tactics used for their revenge purposes and satisfaction of a “job well done”.
- This is typical of what mental, possessive ill people do, charm you into the paradox. Manipulate, control you, betray then dispose of you.
If you are blessed like me, they ask for the divorce however, know that they’ll make sure you will suffer on their terms – I have for further 10 years…However, what they cannot begin to imagine is that every minute away from him … has been just a pure blessing!
They are Energy Vampires
(Deceitful Love leads to Emotional abuse)
To recover we must claim our power back. Give ourselves the time we need, but don’t wait another minute in agony before we begin to do something about it!
If all we do is just open our eyes to the reality that they are the problem, and know it is not you; that in itself is already doing something towards helping yourself start healing.
Let in the “divine being that you are”. By letting go I mean detach, disengage, and separate yourself from any relationship or beliefs, whatsoever, that are toxic.
This does not happen instantly, it’s a long process, but little at a time we certainly build our strength and reclaim our power. What or how it is done is not relevant. It all starts with the decision and determination to overcome the fear, remembering that you deserve to be treated with respect only just because you’re worthy of love and need not earn it to deserve to have it.
What is relevant is that you start this process now – even if you just start it in your head undoing the awful words, he or she has made you believe so far, and not believe it any further.
Let go because “YOU matter”
Walk away… there is no bigger loss than that you have been through already. Go forward you’re better off without it. You are worthy of love and respect.
When you choose that you’re finally done hurting, it is not when it ends for you, it is when it STARTS rather. You stop surviving and start living again. It is terrifying but when you hit the bottom the only way forward is back up and then you become stronger and able to speak your truth!
Understand that nothing of it is actually your fault, nothing that you did or said makes you deserve to hurt and suffer! You do not ever deserve such treatment, situation, or that kind of life, not only you – it applies to everyone.
Start distancing yourself from the thoughts that plague your heart and are not worth keeping.
Learn to catch yourself thinking negatively, and at that point be aware of it – then tell yourself ‘Oh, no, no it’s not like that. Re-think it… tell yourself what the positive version would look like for you.
Your brain begins to create new patterns and connections that are called neuroplasticity, which is how new experiences reorganize neural pathways in the brain. These functional changes in the brain occur when we learn new things or memorize new information. This is proved scientifically and it is not a story.
The time to lick your wounds and heal starts NOW.
Holding onto deep emotional wounds of any sort slowly but surely drains the life out of you bit by bit. When you hold onto it you enable it to fester, corrupt and rot you from the inside.
Surrender
You can, and I repeat you can, change your life and live the life of your dreams, but you have to dream first! You really should.
Let go of EVERYTHING that no longer serves you is the best gift you can give yourself.
Don’t fear this, “where there is a will there is a way”. You are not alone. There are many like you suffering silently.
My point though is that if you have to let go of a toxic relationship with anyone, no matter who it is, for your sanity and wellbeing, then that is what you do. You come first and that is not selfishness! It is Self-Love.
Mend your heart – Let go – Let the Healing from a narcissist relationship guide you to the happiness and joy that you deserve
Write a letter, pour your heart out, say everything that has been stuck, silenced your entire life, and burn it, do it as many times as you need, every time you burn it or bury it, or tear it imagine it dissolving in thin air and go out of your heart. This is called visualization, just like we do when we daydream.
It may feel awkward, but it helps you heal immensely like you took a ton off your heart. It is pretty powerful!!
Release the abuse you have been through. Whatever that is for you, all that matters is that you are deserving, you are enough and you are a divine being! JUST LIKE ME!
Stay blessed, Stay put, in love, for love, with love & Sparkles for your amazingness!!
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